Turning Corners

It's been a pretty good week. Really good actually.

I don't remember ever having this deep relationship with Jesus as I do now. True, I've been a Christian for almost three years now... but I finally feel like I'm walking. I finally feel like I'm not faking on God and playing Him... or using Him for forgiveness for a mess I created.

Essentially, I'm submitting to God in a way that I never have before. I believe the peace I feel right now is directly proportional to my level of submission. I've always felt God's love, but never fully tapped into the Holy Spirit that lives in me. I feel like I wasted a lot of time crawling, trying to walk and falling down on my face. As much as I want to blame others for it, the responsibility is ultimately mine. I disobeyed and my relationship with God suffered as a result.

Part of "Moving Forward" is knowing where you came from and learning from the mistakes. I've fallen, and fallen, and fallen... you get the point. Given this flesh, I'm sure to fall again. I believe I'm in a better position to fight against it because I've truly tapped into the God in me. Now, I won't fall easily. My submission to God is growing, my faith is growing... so I'm more equipped to fight.

And I will continue to fight, through the grace of God.